Emotional

I don't know bout you people but it seems like my life is not always complete. I feels like my life's always lack of something..surely not gf/bf love.. totally not partner love.. I just don't know what my life is lacking of.
you might say i'm a little too emotional here..I dunno but you can say that i'm emotional type of person. I just don't like to tell people stuff nor secrets. I trust my friends..but not all i trust..friends like Alan,Gerard and Douglas, i trust them a lot..i believe that they wont expose my stuff to others..
i just don't know now..with my current mood, how can i possibly study for my test tomorrow?help me..sos